"The only experience that I've had or miracle that I've tasted firsthand was the fact that for most of my life I thought about not much else besides killing myself. Even after becoming a Christian and accepting the Christian religion, I didn't feel much of a change in that. Then just shy of three years ago, I had a sort of encounter where I felt like Paul in the Bible when he was knocked off his donkey and blinded, and then all of the sudden everything was different. The only thing that changed was this simple idea of love and this reality of love."